Jaretts Journey part 1

 Jarett Journey~

Before Jarett was concieved I was really really sick in health due to Crohns Disease if you guys arent familiar with it its an Intestional/Digestive Bowell Disease, ok now thats out the way.... lol
Like I said I was really ill  in body and loseing weight , I couldnt harldy eat or hold anything down . On top of this the stress of this my mariage was on the rocks .. My husband and I were strained to the max .He moved out and was living up the road at his moms cause the tension was great between us that we didnt want it to effect our other two kids till we could resolve things or figure out what wer going to do .Even though we still loved one another we had to do what we thought was best,Well we split in November of 2008 but as any married couple we still would see one another from time to time but now there was not really intmacy at that time between us .. so when the ice storm hit in Jan of 2009 i was forced to be in the same house with my hubby and to be honest God used this time to rekindle the love between us that had been hurt .. so few weeks after the storm  I remember asking my hubby to come down and watch the movie Fireproof with us and he agreed ,and later on that night , that ONE TIME ~ led to the conception of Jarett~ my lil hunnybear~ <3

Well I remember being extremely sick after that and had to go see the doctor and the Gastrointrologist and felt like I was dying .. seriously I was mesierable! I threw up all the time whether i ate or didnt , i couldnt ride or drive that I wasnt sick pulling over yakking everywhere and my stomach hurt horribly i had just thought the crohns was in high gear no doubt or the flu cause i hurt everywhere my head/chest  belly.. well the dr sent me for a chest xray due to the coughing and shortness of breath but before i got in the woman looks at me and ask are u pregnant ? im like no ... she looks again .. she ask "are u sure"? im like well ive had irreuglar cycles since my 3 yrold was born and shes like well u look pregnant, i think you might need to get a test to be sure. I'm like i look pregnant ? lol she said i had a glow about me , im like im not~so lets do the xray and once again she said go down to the dollar tree get a test take it if it says negative then we will do it .. so frustrated, im like i know im not pregnant theres no way i can be,  i only had sex once and we were careful .. i dont know how many times thru the years ive done this and never come up pregnant .. they didnt think i could get pregnant again anyways grumbling to myself .. stomps off and huffs not mad at her just didnt want to do this .. well go  get the test come back and low and behold no more than i peed on that stick it turned Pink two double lines I absolutely thought i was going to pass out right there!!!! FEAR ,ANXIETY you name it it all hit at once.... how was i going to tell my hubby? i battled back n forth with it .. this is march 17th 2009{ my hunnybear was  a goodluck baby} lol .. so i went home and told him and after shock wore off he was excited but as  the pregnancy progresed i had to see a high risk obgyn and fetal specialist.. where they monitored him constantely..

As Jarett started getting bigger and about the 3rd month i was hospitalised with him Crohns was kicking in high gear ... usually pregnacny is so dominate that usually puts Crohns in submission but not this time they were head to head it was a battlegroud.. the Drs were like you know if we have to go in were going to have to bypass the baby cause you come first , your health .. Im like no i dont want that .. so at the hosptial i was adminstated pain meds , nausea meds and steroids ,, all a have too cause im one that wouldnt even so much as take tylenol or depression meds with my other two kids nothing... I was really funny on that stuff , i didnt want to give my kids anything that would alter there developments in the womb at all.. so when i had to take these meds cause the pain was almost unbearable , my temp was getting up that i would break out in cold sweats  my body sheened from sweat, dehydrating from throwing up so much , i threw up from day one till i had him lol... unless i took phenegran ..lol that was no fun sometimes it didnt help lol... I remember laying there in the hospital pleading wtih God ... noone was there just Me and God .. tears rolling down my face .. why God is this happing? Im scared please come and comfort me , i really really need you , they said they may have to operate and i may lose my baby , im scared please do something .. thats when the nurse came in gave me something for pain and she saw the tears rolling down my face and just said honey it will be ok .. I softely said I know God wont put me through no more than i can withstand and with having said that I drifted off to sleep .. that was scary .. but God brought us through so we go home and they give me meds and low and behold i wasnt out a month till i had to go right back .. spent another few weeks .. sheesh they knew me by name there lol.. each time they added meds on me .. i had to take iron pills , folic acid, phenegran , pain meds, steroids and by this time i was dignosed with  gestastional diabetes .. just wonderful !! so now i have to poke my self which i hate to do anytime , 5 times a day to make sure my blood sugar was normal in the hospital they had to give me insulin a few times a day i guess the predisone caused it...  well once again God brought me and Jarett through the hairy scary really close to call of having a major bowell obstruction.. Jarett and i had to visit i think one or two other times . well at the fetal specilast asked me if i wanted to know if he had down syndome or anything genetically wrong i said no .. i went this long i dont wanna know , if something is wrong with my child  due to all the medications cause predisone and phenegran and pain meds can cause severe birth defects and i want to know the old fashioned way .. ill just leave it up to the good lord.. why have myself worrying for the next  few months or so.. no thank you i worry about enough.. so anyways during his ultrasounds Jarett would stay laying towards the right and sunny side up , lol we never could get a good pic of him he didnt like pic ..lol sometimes he would be breech .. he did like to stay to the right with his head up under my ribs .. .. when  it came time for him to be born we had to go ahead an arrange a c-section cause the cord had wrapped around his neck twice and I was fearful of trying to give birth to him vaginally for fear of strangling him .. so we opt to do c-setion.. well when  the doctor cut me open he told my hubby he had trouble geting to Jarett due to all the scar adhesions thats what my problem was all along he was suprised that jarett had room to even grow .. he told him to tell me that i needed to tell my Gastro Dr about it  the scar adhesions had grown around the bowell and was bascially collasping it.. ..  Praise God he brought Jarett and I through ALL these Dark momments and times i didnt think he and I were going to make it , he gave me the strength and the will to go another inch and another step .. I litreally relied 100% on Jesus Christ Nothing or noone else just him cause when Doctors look at you say theres nothing more we can do . What are u going to do then? My faith was tested but I passed wih flying colors cauesI knew in my heart God is faithful and true , I may not understand why this Journey was so rough But I do know the Love and Mercy and Grace that he shared with me was priceless and to give me a son that was healthy . granted on the next blog ill tell you about his lil milestones and accomplihments and How God is using Jarett in a mighty way ~ Thank you God for my precious Hunnybear~ I wouldnt know life without him.. everytime i look in his eyes Jesus I see You !! truly amazing!!! I love you and Give YOU JESUS ALL MY PRAISE~